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So as of late a lot of shit has happened, i guess you can say.
None of which is any other than the business of me and my close ones.
A few days ago i probably did the most un-lady like thing anybody's ever witnessed to totally piss some asshole off.. retaliation at it's best. We showed up at his job with about 15 other people and the look on his face was priceless. I wish i could've stuck around long enough for him to see his face after seeing my.. uhh.. masterpiece?
He called me up threatening to call the cops on me.
low-life fuck-up.
dennis even gave me $10 cause i did what i did.
i guess i'm hardcore like that.
So three months for me and rob was about a week ago.
i think about it and im like 'whaaaat that's it?!'
i guess cause we were together for a year and a half previously, three months just seems so... unimportant, i guess the word would be.
Basically we started where we left off, with some minor adjustments, obviously.
im too exhausted to look at this fucking screen any longer.
im calling my baby and then passing out for the night.
ill update later.
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[27 Jan 2007|03:08pm] |
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i finally found my long lost ipod. It was in one of my other bags just chillen. im ovs that.
so im presently listening to some haddaway. yeah you know 'what is love'.
anyways, so last night.
lmao.
pool was fun, & though i suck, i am slowly but surely getting better. the connection was lost, however.then pranking policemen, applebees, getting rabies, having a physical fight at the table, the amazing sex talks in front of children. ahhh times of muchos muchos buenos.
right now i'm smoking a bogie in my room and on the phone with meggy.
i have to do a sociology paper before my dyke teacher ass rapes me.
i need to finish my bio lab.
i need to buy more textbooks.
i need to give megz $54.50.
I need to get my sick boyfriend soup... or taco bell.
i need to take a shower.
i need to return movies.
i need to get direct deposit from babie's.
i need to call geri & give her hours for this week.
i need to call candice about tonight.
so tonight = round two.
oh, and i wanna get plastered.
ill update later.
<3_ me.
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| Janruary 23rd, 2007 |
[23 Jan 2007|08:06pm] |
So class was yesterday and i'll give you the lowdown...
sociology- teacher is a bitch & i have a paper due tomorrow already. fuck that.
abnormal psych- same psych teacher as last semester so it's gonna be a good class.
west & the world - i get screamed at basically the second i walk in the class, but the teacher dont even care if we show up to class or not so obvi me and gabz will be taking advantage of that.
biology- jewish bitch who spent an hour talking about how she's fat and she went through menopause and how steriods make males impotent. numba out.
it's really nice having off tuesdays and thursdays and going to school with two of my best friends.
well this was a sucky entry but i gotta get ready for the night.
peace niggas.
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| Break is over. |
[21 Jan 2007|02:06pm] |
I want to appoligize for the previous entry, because meghan took it upon herself to post something ridiculous & pawn it off like i wrote it.
Friday we were supposed to party at Ashley's but it ended up we were going to go to do the scavenger hunt, then it was like snowing and shit so we just said fuck it and we were back at square one. We basically made a night of totally acting like assholes & doing stupid shit. And there is a good chance that the cops will give me a call sometime very soon for all of my offences. But whatever it was all so well worth it.
Yesterday was a shitload of fun, as well. I am not spilling any heinous details, though.
I forgot how much fun i used to have with megz. I'm so happy she's back.
I can't believe school really starts tomorrow. where did this entire month go?
I guess it could be worse. At least i go to school with my 2 best friends, and i work with 2 of my best friends and my boyfriend. So i still get to see my favorite people very often no matter how hectic my schedule will be. Going to school and having the two jobs is gonna be rough, though.
So yesterday i cleaned my entire desk area and closet and organized and etc etc. Basically my room looks amazing. I hate cleaning and organizing , though, because i always end up looking at shit and wasting time and i never get it done. Since i save basically everything in my life that has created memories for me, i have a lot of shit. I have every movie stub since probably '01 for god's sake. So i was cleaning my closet and i found 'rob's box'. Yeah rob's box with all our pictures, notes, prom shit, little things he's given me, etc. I don't think i've looked at any of that shit for over a year... i remember banning myself from it after we broke up 'cause i remember reading the notes and i felt like i just wanted to curl up under my sheets and die, and i was devastated.
Now i can look at everything with a smile on my face.
i've given a lot of thought to something recently, and i am finding logic in it.. Rob has mentioned this before, and i always kinda disagreed but it may be true. Couples break up all of the time, some get back together, some don't... so whether me and rob break up or not, we still truly believe that we will end up together. I mean it is true..it's rare for anyone 18 or 19 to settle down but I honestly don't think i could ever feel this comfort level with any other person, or derive this happiness from any other individual. Nor would i ever want to try. I am truly in love with him & i can't imagine ever wanting anybody else.
ok well i just woke up but i am still tired
so im taking a nap.
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[20 Jan 2007|05:53pm] |
school in two days.
ugalay.
im so happy that maegz is coming with me and gabz i missed her fine ass like whooah.
back to the real world...i wouldnt some people who want me when like um they had my best friend...im not meghan okAY.
aight homes well i gotz ta payce cuz i gota go bring my baby, my boy, my best friend, my future husband, my sexy, my cutie, my boy and krist dinner cuz they're fatties like whoa.
LOVE YAZ!!
<33
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| the longest survey of my life |
[16 Jan 2007|03:41pm] |
1. What's your name?christina
2. do you ever lie about your age? well i have a fake id, so yeah.
3. do you prefer "sensitive boys" or "tough guys"? a little of both
4. do you prefer blonde or brunette guys? brunette
5. have you ever been in a serious realitionship? yes
7. How many things in your past do you regret? 1
8. did you answer number six truthfully? ibnt
9. do you have a best friend? yess
10. What do you want to be when you grow up? a lawyer, an accountant, a beautifican, a milf.
11. have you ever kissed two people in one night? yes
14. where do you shop to buy most of your clothes? hmm.. i dunno.. recently victoria's secret.
15. who was the last person you hugged? kristie i think
16. have you ever had your heart broken? yeah
18. have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't have them? yeah but i still had him the whole time anyway, and ended up getting what i wanted.
19. have you ever felt like killing somebody? yeah, kinda sorta on sunday.
20. if you could change anything about your past, what would you change? my infidelity.
21. do you like your life? yes, i have amazing friends, a great family, an incredible boyfriend, i get good grades, i have a good job, and im healthy. i think im pretty damn blessed.
22. do you shop at hollister? no, but dont tell dennis.
24. has one of your friends ever stolen a boyfriend from you? MEGHANNNN BRIDGETTTTTTTTTT lol
25. has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back? yeah
26. did you forgive them? i forgive, but i never forget.
28. do you have friends that are girls or boys? both, mostly male though.
29. how long have you had your myspace? i dont know probably 2 years.
30. have you ever skipped school? yes
31. has anyone ever cheated on you? no
32. have you ever slapped a boy in the face? oh yeah, but my specialty is kicking them in the balls.
33. if so why? i know i've done it to my ex boyfriend cause he pissed me off, but usually when i smack guys im just joking, and its not hard.
34. what is one of your biggest fears of your life? being lonely, and not fulfilling my potential.
38. have any of your friends ever passed away? no
39. have you ever cried yourself to sleep? yeah
40. have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head? yeah
41. do you believe in the saying "once a player, always a player"? no
42. are you a player? no
43. What type of cellphone you have?? motorola maybe, i dont know, or care.
44. what is your screen name? christina10388
46. so far, do you like this survey? ehh
47. have you ever had a good feeling about something and it turned out you were right? yes, i get intuition sometimes
48. do you ever wish you were famous? not in a celebrity sense, but i want to be good at what i do and be known for it.
49. do you ever wish you were a man? i used to but no.
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1. Do you like anyone?:si
2. Do they know it?: si
3. Simple or complicated?: simple, we're in love.
IN - T H E - L A S T - M O N T H - H A V E - Y O U
4. had sex?: yeah
5. Bought something: yeahh
6. Gotten sick?: yeah, flu season, yuck.
7. Been hugged?:yea
8. Felt stupid?:yea
9. Talked to an ex: yeah
10. Missed someone: yeah
11. Failed a test: no
13. Danced:yea
14. Got your hair cut: trimmed
15. Lied: probably
U N I Q U E
16. Nervous habits?: figgeting, and biting nails and cracking my knuckles
17. Are you double jointed?: nopes
18. Can you roll your tongue?:yeah
19. Can you raise one eyebrow?: no
20. Can u cross your eyes?:yea
21. Do you make your bed daily?:nope
22. Do you think you are unique?: yea
H A V E - Y O U - E V E R'S
23. Said "I Love you":yea
24. Given money to a homeless person: maybe
25. Smoked?: yea
26. Waited all night for a phone call?: yea
27. Snuck out?:no
28. have u sat and jus gazed at the stars?:yeah
M A N N E R S
29. Do you swear/curse?:yea
30. Do you ever spit?:yeah
31. Do you ever make your own food?: not usually
32. You do your own chores?: i dont have any
33. You like beef jerky?? ew
35. You're happy with your life?: ya
36. You own a dog?: logggieesssss.
37. You spend your money wisely?: sometimes yea
38. Do you like to swim?: yeah
39. When you get bored do you call a friend: yea
D O - Y O U - P R E F E R'S
41. Flowers or angels?: angels
42. Gray or black?: black
43. Color or black and white photos?: depends, but i like black and white a lot.
44. Lust Or Love?? Love
45. Sunrise or sunset?: sunset
46. M&Ms or Skittles?:M&Ms
48. Staying up late or waking up early?:staying up late
49. Being hot or cold?: hot
50. Winter or Fall?: fall
51. Left or right?:right
52. Having 10 acquaintances or 2 best friends?: 2 best friends.
53. Sunshine or rain?: sunshine
MORE HAVE YOU EVER`S
slept in the same bed as the opposite sex?: yea
Drank a bottle of alcohol by yourself?: yeah
Hooked up in the shower?: no
Been Dumped?: ya
Stolen money from a friend?: no
Slept naked?: yes
Been in a fist fight?: no
Had a crush on a teacher?: yessir
Seen someone die?: i saw my dog die.... that sucked.
Been on an airplane?:yes
Slept all day?:yea
Missed someone so much it hurt?: yea
Been lonely?: yea
Cheated in a game?: hahha yea
Been to the ER?: yea.. fucking cysts.
Been in a car-related incident?: i dont think so, actually
Missed your first love?: no, cause we're still together. <3
Sung in the shower?: haha yea
Kissed a complete stranger?: too much partying.. yeah
Laughed so hard you cried?:yea
Regretted hurting someone?:yea
Been SUPER happy?:yea
MORE QUESTIONS~~~~~~~~~~
What does your MySpace headline mean? its my name, how original right.
What's your middle name?: marie
What are you wearing? black pants and my babies r us shirt
What is your current problem? im tired.
What do you love most? sleeping, my friends family and boy.
Who makes you most happy? my baby and my biffs.
Are you musically talented? i sing
If you MUST be an animal for ONE day-what would you be? a fly so i could spy on people, and fly.
Ever have a near death experience? no
Can you dance? yea
What's the name of the song that's stuck in your head right now?
some song by everlast.
What's the first thing you notice about the OPPOSITE sex? face, hair... then the butt =) gotta have a nice butt.
Do you have a crush on one of your myspace friends? no, my babe is myspace-less.
Ever had a drunken night in Mexico? mexico? random much.
Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity? yeah, i get julia stiles and i also get DJ from full house.
Did you have braces? no
are you comfortable with your height? yea
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12 Months of Questions
JANUARY
1. Did you have a new year's resolution this year?:: ya
2. Who kissed e one last night lol.you at midnight? wat does this say? hahaha
3. Does it snow where you live?:: not yet though
4. Do you like hot chocolate?:: yea
5. Have you ever been to Times Square to watch the ball drop?:: no
FEBRUARY
1. Who was your Valentine?:: last year? mike i think.
2. When you were little, did you buy valentines for your whole class?:: hahah yea
3. Do you care if the groundhog sees its shadow or not?:: no fuck the groundhog.
MARCH
1. Are you Irish?:: yea
2. Do you wear green on St. Patty's Day?:: i dont know.
3. What did you do for St. Patty's Day in 2006?:: got crunk.
APRIL
1. Do you like the rain?:: its ok
2. Did you play an April fool's joke on anyone this year?:: i dont believe so.
3. Do you get tons of candy on Easter?:: not nemore, i just get $$
4. Do you celebrate 4/20?:: last year i did, but never again.
MAY
1. What's your favorite kind of flower?:: fake roses.
2. Do you like the spring?::yeah
3. Finish the phrase "April showers":: bring may flowers
4. What is the first color you think of when you think of Spring?:: pink
JUNE
1. What year did/will you graduate from highschool?::2006
2. Did you realize nothing special happens in June?:: graduation does
JULY
1. What did you do on the Fourth of July?:: i think went to cassie's, and i dont know what else.
2. Did you go on any vacations during this month?:: no
3. Do you blast the A/C all day?:: my mom does and ill be freezing my ass off
AUGUST
1. Did you do anything special at the end of your summer?:: said goodbye to my amigos.
2. What was your favorite summer memory of '06?:: i had a car this summer so pretty much being able to do wat i wanted when i wanted.
3. Do you have a sunburn?:: then i probably did.
4. Do you go to the beach a lot?:: i went several times.
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| January 15, 2007. |
[15 Jan 2007|08:43pm] |
I've been non-stop working the last week. Now that I have two jobs i'm pretty much working every single day. Which i don't mind 'cause i get to see my bestest friend and amazing boyfriend in the process. I work at the baby registry desk and in infant care at babies r us... it's pretty damn sweet. Now that i know what 'babies..' is like, i really am leaning in favor of it.
2 of my favorite movies that i've recently discovered are Pretty Woman, & the Breakfast Club. I watched them for the first time this week and i'm officially in love. I love just sitting down and watching a really good movie with a good message and meaning... it seems like they stopped making movies like that a long time ago and we must go back to the classics to find it.
So yesterday was pretty fucking adventurous. here's a couple reasons.
So meghan, dennis and i went to roosevelt field to go on a shopping spree, but turns out it was mobbed and i ended up getting really bad anxiety and had an attack so we left. Dennis being the amazing friend he is drove us home, since i couldn't. The place was fucking packed, and as we were pulling out of our parking spot, there was a couple just like walking right in the center of our lane of the parking lot. At that point i was already really angry at myself that we had to leave, so i screamed at them "This is a fucking parking lot, get the fuck out of my way!" The people turned around and looked at me like "wtf.", but they moved.. so i guess you gotta be stern to get your way cause people are assholes.
Then we get back to pequa, and decide to try sunrise which ended up not being too packed at all. So we shopped and yadda yadda yadda. Then we're leaving and me and meghan are smoking a boge in my car and some group of what looked like 16 year olds walk past the car, and some girl in the group yells 'stop smoking!' to us. IT REALLY GRINDS MY GEARS WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT. I know smoking is a horrible habit, i do know that, but i hate when people point it out because chances are in a few years they'll be smoking dem bogies as well. So, anyway, i opened my window a little more and told her stfu and called her a stupid cunt. So the same wench turned around and gave me the finger. Did it slip this bitches mind that i happened to be in a fucking CAR, in the driver's seat, mind you, and she was walking? At that point i was like enough is enough.. i was already in a bad mood as it was, so i revved my car up fast and went full speed ahead right into their little group, barely missing them, of course. The bitch was in shock and it looked like she shit her pants as she was screaming 'oh my god.' as i screamed out my window 'dont fuck with me'. it was probably the funniest thing that has happened to me in a while.. you just had to be there.
Well i'm gonna cut this entry short since i gotta go get ready for the night.
BiGD 729: tonight feels like a paper clips night
^^ yeah it does.
you only wish you knew.
<3 Christina Marie Nicole.
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today was my brother's birthday and being the amazing sister i am, i got him this video game he was begging for.. and some other video game too. so we did the family bonding thing and actually ate dinner together and sang happy birthday and did the cake thing. how precious.
so as for work. i started at babies r us. so i told my managers at staples that i am not sure of what i want to do yet, but i have a new job lined up and i only want to work 1-2 days a week there and try out this new job. so basically im splitting time between the two jobs. I deny it now, but i know if i just leave staples i will regret it, and a big part of me will miss it. Though there are many pros to that place; the people, the fun we do have, the pay (which is better than babie's), there is one huge con; my general manager. Then again working at babie's with my best friend and my boyfriend doesn't seem too shabby, either. So yeah, you could say i'm in a predicament.
everyone's talking about spring break already. A bunch of my friends wanna go to Palm Beach or some tropical island.. and me, eh... i'd rather just be a lazy shit all spring break and just drink to an oblivion and smoke boges all day at the beach. this is in part because i am, quite frankly.. broke. I know my parents would definitly give me some money towards it, but i dont know, i'm starting to feel like "ok im 18 years old, i need to grow up." I dont want to rely on my parents for money if i dont need to. I'd rather save my money for a new car.
Meghan is coming home saturday. im so excited. I havent seen her in almost 3 months. Talking to her maybe once every few weeks on the phone doesn't suffice, and im gonna be so glad when she's back.. for good. She may even end up going to Farmingdale this semester, although i'm somehow doubting that.
ok well i am exhausted and i have a busy day tomorrow.. up early and working then i have a doctor's appointment then me and my boy have plans to go out to dinner etc etc.
i'll update soon, promise.
oh quote of the century, btw.
Dennis' mom: "You gotta go tanning before. you don't want to show up there lookin like a white son ova bitch."
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[09 Jan 2007|03:43pm] |
So my new year's resolution is... ::drum roll:: ...
=)
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1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT RING?
nope
2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
a little over a year and a half
3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
late xmas present; scarf from gaby
4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
story of my life.
5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
probably last month. i'm like avoiding it.
6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
gasolina, cigs, clothes
7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
garlic nots
8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
hair, face, eyes, butt. =)
9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
"alone"-heart, "lips of an angel"- hinder, "bittersweet symphony"-the verve.. to name a few
10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
massapequa park
11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND(ED):
massapequa high school...the school for rich and cocky stupid bitches and assholes.
12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:'
t-mobile
13. FAVORITE MALL STORE?
victoria's secret, h&m
14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD?
staples...one year and about 4 months.
15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
nah can't say i do
16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?:
oh yessss.
17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
i dont even know. it's been a while
18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
kristie-ann
19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
today
20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
wendy's
21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
on exposed the other day a girl said she has never farted in her life.
23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
friday's
24. CAN YOU COOK?
no, that's why i shall never be a housewife.
despite what my stupid boyfriend claims.
25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?:
1198 pontiac grand am
26. BEST KISSER:
*conceited moment* yeah, me. obviously.
27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
2 days ago
28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
red meat
29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
my honesty, my sarcasm
30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
my indecisiveness.
32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
i have worked 8-4 at the diner then 4-9:30 at staples.
33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
ghost, the notebook, wedding crashers,
34. CAN YOU SING?
yessir
35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
brandnew
37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
me and the babes rented waiting last night
38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
my cell phone and medication
39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?:
ireland!
43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
desktop... i need my mouse.
44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
ellen degeneres
45. DO YOU SMOKE?
ya
46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
depends.
47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
nobody.. but rob's t-shirt when he's not with me.
48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?:
no..id never attempt one.
49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
0.. knock on wood.
50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
french toast!
51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?:
im in love... but i am not allowed to drink it anymore. sucks.
52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
scrambled
53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
eh.
54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?:
rob
55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?:
jaclyn
56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECIEVED?:
"kk love cheeks" - kristie
58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
4
59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
black v neck t-shirt, and victoria's secret velour pants ..and my glasses
60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
'i guess we never really moved on'
61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?:
grape
62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
i can play, just not well.
63. CAN YOU SWIM?
yeah, again, not well.
64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?:
peanut butter.
65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
yes, because i suck at directions
66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
i wear contacts and have really bad eyesight.
68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
no
69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON
probably spring
70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
last night while watching 'waiting'.
71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING ?
1:00 pm
72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
christmas lights, vacation from school
73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
neva. knock on wood, again.
75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
sammy... dog when i was a baby.
76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
um, nonexistant..
77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
i worked, went to a baby shower, hung with my friends, my boyfriend, etc.
78. BIRTHDATE
10/3
79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:
ideally..to be my own boss.
85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
nope.
87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
no
89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW
yess
90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
bahamas
92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
college
93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
oh yea
94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
Brianna, Brittany, Devon, Christopher.. yeah i've thought about this.
95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
i have a black one, a blue one, a red one, a pink one i think.
96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
nah sept.
97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
nope.
98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
no
99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER
no
100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
no
101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
why, yes.
102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
yes
103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
yes
104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
earrings, rings, pearl necklace, bracelt my baby bought me =)
105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
maybe watch some tv.
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| 01 - 06- 2007 |
[06 Jan 2007|09:06pm] |
i can't remember a long period of time in my life when i didn't have a boyfriend.. i mean, except for when i was a lot younger. i think it's safe to say that since i was probably 13 or so i've been dating and seeing people on and off at a constant. i've been told that i just have that thing, a certain thing about my personality or self, that guys are attracted to. this entry is in no way intended for conceit.. but throughout all of my life, and everyone of my relationships i just always remember feeling like i was always singing that new found glory song in my head; "id still choose my friends over you".
i'm not going to say i've never ditched my friends for my boyfriend, because that would be a lie, but whenever i did do it.. it was a rareity and i felt like shit. Your friends are the ones that will always be there... and it sucks to say, but one single boyfriend may not.
it's upsetting that not all people probably agree with me on this, but maybe a person wouldn't understand this concept unless they faced a hardship that taught them how it really feels to be really alone. and i don't mean alone in the 'single' aspect, i mean entirely alone.
i had to vent.
well, last night.
i was upset and sad and hjfjsdfhfhsdhj.
so what did i do? drove around with 4 of my bff screaming obsene profanity to pedestrians.
definitly helped me blow some steam off, i'll tell you that much.
we conquered wantagh, seaford, massapequa... we probably sterred clear of amityville since it was a good possibility we would've gotten shot, but whatevs..
it just felt good just to scream.
and doing it at people just made it funny.
instead of 'numba out'.. 'chop chop' is now in. (i had to add that part for dennis.)
well im about to go outso i will either edit or post another entry later.
kisses.
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[01 Jan 2007|03:36pm] |
so it's a new year, and i will say i have learned a lot in one year;
-i've learned you can't always expect people to stay the same. people evidentally change without warning and sometimes it can be heartbreaking but this is the person they really truly are and have always been and it's only until now, for whatever particular reason, that their true colors are showing.
-love is real. it's not just in movies and novels. real life fairytales happen. not everybody believes in love because they have never felt the feeling of a mutual love that's deeper than the depths of the ocean. it's easy to be a cynic when it's comes to love, but everybody gets their time. and whether love lasts merely a minute, an hour, a year, or a lifetime it's totally worth the pain, and most of all the wait.
-i've learned that you should never say i love you when you don't.. or when you don't know how you really feel. It unintentionally hurts people to a point of no repair.
- sometimes driving around singing like an asshole with your favorite song blasting, a boge in ur hand, and ur best friend by ur side.. really is the cure all.
- high school wasn't as horrifying as everyone remembers it to be..especially cause the real world pretty much sucks. High school was like this bubble we were all in & then suddenly we graduate and the bubble is popped and everybody scatters. Some people know exactly where they're going and get there, some people are a little undecided and take baby steps in their destination, and the majority are in a standstill looking around thinking 'what the fuck do i do now?' The fact of the matter is that everybody ends up where they're supposed to be.. eventually.
- My parents are not evil. My brother is not the devil. Sometimes you can find happiness in places you least expect it. I used to avoid talking to my parents but now i feel like i can tell my parents (my mom, more often) anything. I used to be afraid but it's true..they were teenagers once, too, and they know exactly what i'm going through. And for the most part they don't judge me.
- a really good friend never leaves you. not just any friend. a lifetime long friend. They are always there whether it be physically or just emotionally, they are always evident, and their love never goes unnoticed. and that bond is countable for eternity.
-your mind is the most powerful part of your body. a strong mind can make a person literally go crazy.. or believe something that isn't really there. don't take it too literally all the time, because sometimes, yeah, it is all in your head.
-people are always going to talk about you.. whether you're 15 or you're 50. Envious minds pick out your flaws in a sorry attempt to bring you down to their level. Sometimes all you have to do is sit back and laugh and you'll realize that you must of done something right to be obsessed about this much. And for gods sake, you know you're just s o m u c h better than them.
well i'll update in a little bit with some more entry fun.
oh, and last night was a fucking blast. i had a great sober time. for serious. :)
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i got so much for christmas this year.. santa mustve thought i was pretty fucking good all year.
some things i got from santa were ..a dvd player, angel perfume, a chanel bag, 3 pairs of uggs, 3 juicy outfits, 80 bucks to victoria's secret, 50 bucks to h&m, 50 bucks to the mall, 150 bucks in gas cards, pjs, slippers, a juicy hoodie, makeup, diamond earrings, etc etc.
santa hit me up pretty well.
it kinda sucked, however, opening up presents at 7:30 am after going to bed at 4...
fucking 7 year olds, man.
so as for the other gifts i got.. some of my faves;
scene it friends edition- from my MOH kristie-ann.
scarf from deniel.
"sweet cheeks" undies from jaclyn.
i got the most beautiful bracelet from rob. it's white gold with diamonds all around it sorrounding my birthstones. it's gorgeous. i will never ever ever take it off. <3
i could go on and on.. but im getting tired.
im kinda relieved the holidays are over, though. i mean, this year, honestly, i wasn't in the mood... it didn't seem like many people were. my tree is already down, and so are all my lights...my parents don't waste any time.
well its 3:30.. and im supposed to be waking up to go to breakfast with my babes bright and early... good night.
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| 12/18/06 |
[18 Dec 2006|12:54am] |
i haven't really had any time to do anything lately.. with finals and work and xmas shopping and trying to have a social life on top of everything.
i'm just updating this thing because i'm avoiding sleeping.
im trying to wait till my man gets home from work..
as my friends are out smoking which i can't take part in.
why, you ask?
one word; anxiety.
loves life.
only 2 more days of the shithole...i mean, school.. and then a whole month off.
i bet you the second school is over staples will put me on for 40+ hours/week, and i'll tell you one thing, i am not having that.
meghan is coming home..cassie is coming home..
and i wanna spend as much time as i can with everybody before school starts up again.
im stilll having second thoughts about starting at babys r us.. i go in there sometime this week for orientation, but im still very undecided.
maybe this will be like the nautilus where i get the job and just dont show up after a few days and am too embarassed to go back in there for my check that i basically work for free.
well maybe i should study some being that i have a human sexuality final bright and early.
..very doubtful, because im a lazy piece of shit.
well, im gonna go listen to my ipod and search college humor.
peaceee.
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To the Keeper of my heart,
this is the only letter that will ever speak my mind, its the only piece of paper with my initials signed that you will ever find. its consists of all the feelings that ever go through my head, especailly while im laying in bed. you know those nights, you have your hands replaced as a pillow, and you just stare at the ceiling? its one of those nights where you forget how to breathe, but you live off the fact that there is someone out there, a single person, who gets weak in the knees jsut thinking of you. its how right before i fall asleep, that one moment of total solitude that i think about how it is when our lips touch. its liek those falling stars, i stare out a car window, did you ever know i love you far to much? So maybe this is what im trying to say, you know those nights where i totally analyze every blank stare you shine my way? or how all those rumors clutter my draws? or you know how i swear i never get angry, but i do when it comes to you? Well darling, thats becasue i have never ever felt this way. no not once in my life have i felt so complete. I never felt so much love inside of me, and hell you are nothing ive been looking for - yet everything i need. You make me heart smile, and make me fall apart with all that distance of miles. but thats why we are so perfect, why we can stay together - becasue our destiny, our life story has each other in it. So tonight, i came to the conclusion - as i got into the drivers seat and i made my way home, i focused on this one single star in the sky, and yes - thats when i started to cry. with our song in the background, thats when i knew - you are apart of me, you are in my blood, you are the keeper of my heart. and i know i shall prepare myself for your depature again, but i need you more than you'll ever know, and if my lungs take you for granted, if my blue eyes dont resemble your relfection - just know, you have forever changed me. you have gotten into my dreams, you are the target of all my screams. and through all those days of ins and outs, all those days where my mind holds doubts. know im my heart, theres no other route, no way around this, because it all started with a kiss. one that i have never felt, the one that had has me under this spell, and the only perfect thing i have ever done, is the day i fell..
So this is the only time I will ever say it, its the only time i will ever let you know exactly what goes through my mind, i have never been this empty in my whole life. the cold day in september took all that was left of me, but with you, there is no fear, theres only you me against this world my dear.
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so, brand new.
dissapointing.
sucky.
donde esta soco amaretto lime,
the quiet things that no one ever knows,
70 x 7,
jude law and a semester abroad... etc etc
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the arena was basically packed with thousands of drunk 13 year olds acting like fucking morons. i really hope i didn't look like that when i was 13... although somehow i think i did.
so we left halfway through dashboard... dashboard, in my opinion, for the most part sucks, anyway... everyone else seemed to agree with me, as well. so we peaced.
we were gonna walk around the city for awhile, but it was too fucking cold to do anything. we just got on the train and came back here... and went to friday's...and went bowling..
i really wanna go see the tree before christmas, because that's just like really romantic and cute. And i wanna go ice skating by the tree, too.. even if it is 8923213872342834 dollars.
my cousin's confirmation was yesterday.. 3 hours of sitting in a church pew. funn.
i think i somewhat believe in God, i just can't pinpoint to what extent.
I was just sitting there listening to constant preaching about everything holy, and i do believe in hope and faith, but just some things i wanted to raise my hand and be like 'wtf?. i didn't, of course. maybe one day i'll find out what religion i am a believer in. catholicism obvi isn't the one for me. i'm just confused. i just thank god my parents never forced me into going to catholic school...who wants to be subjected to one way of thinking, anyway? .. that's just a recipe for a world full of closed minded people.
i was never really a big fan of hellogoodbye... i loved their song 'two weeks in hawaii' a while ago, but their new song 'here in your arms' is by far the best song i've ever heard of theirs. i think i'm in love. Oh, and that new Nelly Furtado song is pretty good, it's called 'say it right' or some shit.
there's a gooood chance i'm getting written up this week.
honestly, i really could give a fuck.
basically i got the job at baby's, so staples can go fuck themselves.
the store sucks, anyway.
i know i'm gonna miss everybody though.
well i have to start a shitload of work...
and get ready.
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| so...it's december 6th. |
[06 Dec 2006|05:07pm] |
so today i went to the interview for baby's r us. it went quite well, i think. now i just need to have a background check, and then she'll call me. a background check? do i look like a criminal? whatevin. and then she'll call me for orientation. gayy. i think i've come to the conclusion that i really don't want a job. my parents don't care, either way. so really, it doesn't matter. well, if i dont like baby's, i'll just peace.
i've been feeling quite shitty lately. like my body aches for some reason, and i just feel blah. this cold weather is already starting to get on my nerves, and it's only the beginning of december. it's way too fucking cold out to do anything.
i so didn't go to class today. i only had one class, anyway.. and it was sex ed and a gynocologist was coming in to give us some information.. about pussy, i assume. i was more content being a lazy piece of shit sleeping till god knows when rather than learning the ins and outs of a vag.
so i went bowling with krist, pascale, and scott last night. obviously last night was a full moon. first some guy that worked there kept telling me how he wanted me to go to the back with him "and stroke me a few times with his thick 7 inches" and how he wanted "to ream me". and he just kept going with it. he was asking me about my ex boyfriend's dick size...and shit. in situations like that, i just get kinda awkward and laugh. in my min i was like W T F.
then while me and krist were smoking a boge inbetween games, some random guy that we got a light from was talking to us about some wierd shit. and the wierd situations just kept coming. then rob, gaby, and tom showed up... and me and my love just ended up going back to my house and watching office space and hanging out. that's probably a good reason i didn't attend either work, or school today.
only 2 more weeks of school and i couldn't be more delighted. no more english as of today, either. Now i gotta find some time to shop. thank god krist and gabz are done.. got 2 of the biggest out of the way. and my brother's done, too. now i just gotta finish the 923478234727384 other presents. im actually searching online now for my love's presents. im still so undecided, though, on what to get him. i already know part of what he's getting for me.. then again, everytime he's asked what i want i say either "nothing".. or "you".. just to be a total loser. but, really, i dont want or need anything from anyone... and he already gives me everything i want by loving me.
girls night tonight... (at least for portion of the night.)... this hasn't happened in forever.
i need to start the million projects and papers due soon.
i might as well start now.
byeee byeee.
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[04 Dec 2006|09:08pm] |
so i've come to the conclusion that people are always going to be jealous of you for something that you have or something that you are.. or anything of that sort... so you may as well just laugh it off. 'cause the green monster is never going away. And just like any other, jealousy is a disease. (as well as stupidity, but i'm not even going to get into that one..)
i honestly can't stop laughing right now.
high school drama obviously never dies.
certain people try to "ms./mr. high school" for the remainder of their lives. it's really quite histerical how some NEVER grow out of that, or grow up, for that matter.
i rescheduled my babys r us interview for wednesday, and im looking forward to it, honestly.
my gabrielle is such a whore. but i love her. :)
i need to do some homework and go out.
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[03 Dec 2006|02:47pm] |
| Long Survey About Yourself | | What time are you starting this?: | 2:08 pm | | Name?: | Christina Marie Nicole | | Nicknames?: | Stien, Kitch, etc. | | Date of birth?: | 10- 03 - 1988 | | Sex?: | Female.. the surperior sex. | | Height?: | 5'6" | | Eye color?: | blue | | Where were you born?: | mid island hospital | | Number of candles on your last birthday cake?: | 18.. and one for good luck. | | Pets?: | logan.. little yorkshire terrier | | Hair color?: | blondish brown | | Piercings?: | nose, 2 in each ear, and tragus | | Town you live in?: | matzapizza. | | Favorite foods?: | mac n cheese, pizza, seafood | | Ever been to Africa?: | no.. and i dont plan to | | Been toilet papering?: | yeah | | Love someone so much it made you cry?: | mmmhm | | Been in a car accident?: | nothing major | | Croutons or bacon bits?: | croutons | | Favorite day of the week?: | friday, no work, no school, lots of sleep. | | Favorite resturant?: | friday's, probably | | Favorite flower?: | a fake rose. | | Favorite sport to watch?: | no me gusta a mirar deportes. | | Favorite drink?: | apple juice, sprite, orange soda, orange juice | | Favorite ice cream flavor?: | strawberry | | Warner Bros. or Disney?: | disney | | Favorite fast food restuarant?: | wendy's | | Carpet color in your bedroom?: | black | | How many times did you fail your driver's test?: | twice.. lmao | | Whom did you get your last email from?: | rob | | Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?: | victoria's secret, M.A.C., h&m | | What do you do most often when you are bored?: | go online, call someone, listen to music, take a nap.. | | Most annoying thing to say to me?: | "that's what she said". what the fuck, i hate that. overused. | | Bedtime?: | never before 1 am.. but on the weekends its usally around 3. | | Favorite TV show?: | seinfeld, friends, american idol | | Last person you went out to dinner with?:: | rob, kristie, nicole, dennis | | Been out of country?: | yeshh | | Believe in magick?: | i don't know, sometimes my mind fucks with me, so maybe. | | Ford or Chevy?: | ford | | What are you listening to right now?: | christmas canon | | Have you ever failed a grade?: | nope | | If you have, what grade did you fail?: | nope | | Do you have a crush on someone?: | yes, it's a big secret, too. | | Do you have a bf/gf?: | yes | | If so, what is their name?: | rob | | How long have you been together?: | went out in 04 for a year and a half, broke up, now we're back together for a little over a month. | | What are you wearing right now?: | a robe and glasses | | Would you have sex before marriage?: | yeah i told myself i wouldn't but i fucked that up | | Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: | YES =) | | Are you a virgin?: | nope. | | Do you smoke?: | yes | | Do you drink?: | yes | | Are you ghetto?: | whitest person you'll ever meet. | | Are you a player?: | not anymore | | What are your favorite colors?: | red, black | | What is your favorite animal?: | pup | | Do you have any birthmarks?: | not really, i just have beauty marks all over | | Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: | nope | | Who do you talk to most on the phone?: | rob | | Have you ever been slapped?: | yeah | | Do you get online a lot?: | whenever im not busy | | Are you shy or outgoing?: | outgoing | | Do you shower?: | yes | | Do you hate school?: | sometimes | | Do you have a social life?: | yes | | How easily do you trust people?: | it's really hard for me. | | Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: | yeah ... well people who don't know me that well would be surprised | | Would you ever sky dive?: | no, im a pussy | | Do you like to dance?: | yes | | Have you ever been out of state?: | yes | | Do you like to travel?: | yes | | Have you ever been expelled from school?: | no | | Have you ever been suspended from school?: | no | | Do you want to get out of your hometown?: | no, i will probably die here. | | Are you spoiled?: | no | | Are you a brat?: | no..sometimes i pretend to be to fuck around, but no | | Have you ever been dumped?: | yea | | Have you ever gotten high?: | yea | | Do you like snapple?: | peach | | Do you drink a lot of water?: | yeah | | What toothpaste do you use?: | crest?.. i think | | Do you have a cell phone?: | yes | | Do you have a curfew?: | yeah | | Who do you look up to?: | my parents | | Are you a role model?: | in some ways.. like my work ethic | | Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?: | nope | | What name brand do you wear the most?: | ugg & northface | | What kind of jewelry do you wear?: | pearls, school ring, engagement ring, nose ring, diamond earrings | | What do you want pierced?: | more ear piercings | | Do you like takin pictures?: | yes | | Do you like gettin your picture taken?: | yes | | Do you have a tan?: | not anymore | | Do you get annoyed easily?: | yes | | Have you ever started a rumor?: | yeah | | Do you have your own phone or phone line?: | yes | | Do you have your own pool?: | not anymore | | Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: | boxers... or boxer briefs | | Do you have any siblings?: | yes brother | | Have you ever been played?: | no | | Have you ever played anyone?: | yeah | | Do you get along with your parents?: | for the most part | | How do you vent your anger?: | music | | Have you ever ran away?: | kind of | | Have you ever been fired from a job?: | no | | Do you even have a job?: | yes | | Do you daydream a lot?: | no | | Do you have a lot of ex's?: | i guess so | | Do you run your mouth?: | yep. | | What do you want a tattoo of?: | im still contemplating this | | What do you have a tattoo of?: | ...^^ | | What does your ex bf/gf look like?: | hahaha | | What does your most recent crush look like?: | he's sexyyyy... | | Whats her/his name?: | rob | | Have you ever been bitched out?: | lmao, yeah, what a joke. | | Are you rude?: | i can be very. | | What was the last compliment you recieved?: | something rob said | | Do you like getting dirty?: | sexually? | | Are you flexiable?: | yeah | | What is your heritage?: | irish, german, italian | | What is your lucky number?: | 26 | | What does your hair look like right now?: | a fucking disaster | | Could you ever be a vegetarian?: | yeah, im half there already. | | Describe your looks?: | i'm not doing this | | If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: | blonde | | Would you ever date someone younger than you?: | yeah | | Would you ever date someone older than you?: | yeah | | When was the last time you were drunk?: | maybe a few weeks ago | | How many rings until you answer the phone?: | whenever i get to it | | Have you ever been skinny dipping?: | yeah | | If yes, when was the last time?: | like 2 years ago | | When was the last time you went on a date?: | like 2 days ago | | Do you look more like your mother or father?: | mother | | Do you cry a lot?: | not really | | Do you ever cry to get your way?: | no | | What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: | thats when you know | | Are you the romantic type?: | yes | | Have you ever been chased by cops?: | no | | What do you like most about your body?: | probably my ass | | What do you like least about your body?: | most of the time i hate my chest | | When did you have your first crush?: | kindergarten | | When was the last time you threw up?: | a long time | | In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: | brunettes | | Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?: | no | | What about cleavage?: | i dont have to try for that to happen | | Is your best friend a virgin?: | no | | Have you ever fucked someone up?: | no | | Have you ever been fucked up?: | no | | What theme does your room have?: | kissing | | What size show do you wear?: | shoe? 8.5 or 9 | | What is your screen name on AIM?: | christina10388 | | How are you feeling right now?: | tired | | When was the last time you were at a party?: | 2 nights ago | | Have you ever given a lapdance?: | yes | | Have you ever recieved one?: | no | | Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: | yea | | What is one of your bad qualilties?: | my trust issues | | What is one of your good qualilties?: | i am persistent and hard- working and i don't care what anyone thinks about me. | | Would you marry for money?: | never | | What do you drive?: | grand am | | Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?: | hmm.. i dont know | | So?: | whatsup | | Well?: | .. | | When was the last time you cried in school?: | last year... last day of school probably | | Would you ever hook up with the same sex?: | haha... guilty | | What kind of music do you like?: | basically everything, rock more than anything though. | | Would you ever bungee jump?: | no | | What is your worst fear?: | lonliness | | Would you ever join the army?: | i've thought about it, no. | | Do you like cows?: | no | | If you were to die today, what would you do?: | tell my family, friends, and love what they mean to me. | | If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?: | forever | | Do you like to party?: | yes | | Hearts or broken hearts?: | hearts | | Moons or stars?: | stars | | Coke or pepsi?: | coke | | Favorite scent?: | raplh lauren, ralph | | Favorite band?: | brand new | | Would you ever dye your hair red?: | NO | | How many languages can you speak?: | 2 | | What time are you finishing this?: | 2:30 | |
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| December 2nd |
[02 Dec 2006|01:49pm] |
I keep having this reoccuring dream where i beat the shit of this specific bitch(who will not be named)... and i wake up feeling very rejuvinated. So i feel very rejuvinated right now.
So i got an interview at Baby's r us. That should be interesting trying to convince them that i'm not dating one of the employees.
i got a new diamond 14k nose ring... and after a half hour of attempting to put it in, i just gave up. I think my hole is too small. and now its just constantly bleeding & sore.
this week is going to be ridiculously busy.
i have the interview, confirmation rehearsal, a math project, a history paper, an english paper, 4 full days of work, to go to the bank, a doctor's appointment, christmas shopping, "dig deep" for copy center, the brand new concert, my cousin's confirmation...basically, i'm fucked.
i need to start taking more pictures. I say this all the time, but i really do.. I want to look back on my younger years and always have pictures to go with stories and people's faces.. plus its the holiday season and pictures are very suitable right now.
i've been listening to a lot of billy joel & christina aguilera lately. im not sure why.
christina may be a hoe, but that bitch can sing.. and that's what it's all about.
i need to start the homework load.
ill probably update later.
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